just sitting down.. AT dude.. make me laugh ONCE again.. as again this is us JUST sitting down part. the real fun hasn't even begun:)

which what I remember most about this plane ride.. it what a difference 9 months makes.. NIGHT and DAY..
as my sweet AT.. trues, jonah and tad.. OUT.. but ozzy struggling.. not having it.. not being able to settle..

I am at one end.. AT at the other.. I am just holding ozzy while he is crying.. I am about to cry as.. there is nothing more I can do for you.. I am SO exhausted..
then I feel a tap on my shoulder.. AT has walked all the way around the back to come and give you a whirl..

is this the same AT that rode over with me nov 9 2009.. uuuuuummmmmmmhhhhhh you look like the same guy??
aren't you the one that LITERALLY almost went postal traveling with us?? on this flight you take so many times a year by yourself.. .. we even have sweet miles we use for all sorts of fun??? but this time you have your kids in tow.. and you just about lost it,, as if it was a surprise to you. that I can not do 4 kids all by my lonesome on a 10 hour flight.. YOU.. YOU MY AT thought you would sail thru it with your mom and sister traveling with us.. when you turned to them in the hour you needed them so bad.. to have your mom have taken a sweet sleeping pill.. OUT!!
WHAT?? you really had to check in.. I still remember that.. literally laughing just a bit.. as I was a human pacifier for our ozzy.. and did all my tricks for the boys.. but simply could not do the truly right then.. as ozzy had finally just fell asleep in my arms.. so you had to take on the truly.. .. that was saying.. WHAT IN THE HELL IS THIS?? you want ME... QUEEN tah tah.. to sit still.. YOU MUST be out to lunch!!!!!!!!

so if you got all that.. you can imagine.. my sheer tender gratefulness for this moment that happened july 23 2010 when.. an AT has taken us over to his sweet to japan.. to carrying us and guide us thru it all.. was it for work.. in part yes.. but the TRUE reason.. was to show US what we are made of.. what we are capable of doing.. WHO KNEW all you could do?? who knew.. I would be shown.. "you think you are doing this alone.. " YOU MUST BE OUT TO LUNCH!!!
but most simply.. what is most important to us.. and really what it is about.. our eternal family... glue..
what made it easier to see.. is less distractions..

I remember being home the first week.. and even though we are all under the same roof.. I missed you all so much.. I felt so distant.. even though i was literally looking right at you.. I missed you??
being in a country where we really didn't understand the language.. it created this very small tight world for us.. would it be good for long term?? not so much.. was it always easy.. NO.. will I ever forget it... as your mother and your wife..
not any time soon..