JONAHS BAPTISM

I had no idea how AWE-SOME this day would be...
I am starting to feel.. that when you are REALLY on the right path.. the adversary can work ever so hard on you!!
letting doubt seap in!!! as all week long.. praying OVER AND OVER!! to still my soul.. still my mind..
but just getting stuck!! holding on to last week attendance to ward temple night!! which PAUSE FOR A MOMENT on my growing testimoney of the TEMPLE!!! I went two saturdays in a row.. which at this point.. thats just plain crazy for me... but fully going to get blessings, PROTECTION!!! which looking back now.. no way could I have been prepared for THIS day.. with out going to the temple!!! FEELING the Saviors love for ME!!! being able to see clearly how he KNOWS me!! KNOWS our NEEDS!!!

but your baptism.. YOUR EXAMPLE is just JOY!! JOY!!!
we went early to practice tad, truly and shay's musical number.. while trying to keep ozzy and my GRANDMOTHER satisfied was keeping me distracted:)
but as I stepped outside to let ozzy run around in the foyer I saw bishop collins pull up.. which I was SO EXCITED for you.. as you had told us during the week that he would not be able to attend and he was SO bummed he would be missing it!!! as he would be out of town. even in your little interview the week before with him.. I could feel the love YOU FELT from him! so when I saw him pull up.. I KNEW it would matter to you.. but then I saw kristin, rachael, steph and scott pile out.. right then it started to hit me.. this mattered!! I was overwhelmed at the love and support from them..

then as I stepped back into the chapel.. to see jen, carson and brooke.. then jill, macey!! tara and mitchell, nicole and blake!!
it truly takes a village.. all these people that touch our lives in such a way that we can feel HIS light!!! such a blessing to be able to feel that.. as its these times that truly carry us thru all the trials that remind ME SPECIFICALLY to hold on to the gospel with SUCH A FIRM grip!!!!!!!!!!

jonah.. JONAH your peace, your calmness, your sweet tender heart!!! sure you are human.. but so easily I can always tap into your true inner self, your spirit.. THAT IS YOUR GIFT!!!!!
this week you just glided thru it.. thru everything.. remembering to stop and hug, give gratitude.. to SHARE.. you even got this neat little fossil but quickly wrapped it up as an extra bonus prize for ty's birthday..
you have the BEST grandpa fit for you!!! grandpa turner.. you are SO in his heart!!! he can explain anything in just the perfect way that you understand it!!! then its as if you crave more truth!!!

when I actually saw you come up at of the water.. I was just in AWE!! I just kept thinking example!! EXAMPLE!!! so excited to have you in this home!! I can not help but ache each time I have to let you go just a little more.. while at the same time so over joyed that I get this in my home!!!!
it took dad and you a while to return to the chapel.. Allen told me later... he could NOT fight back the emotion..it took him that long to stop crying.. as he just felt PURE JOY!!!

I can only imagine what it was like.. to actually have the moment with you... to pull you up out of the water then to get to sneak back into the dressing room and have you all to myself:) I bet it was like when you were born!!! but MORE!!! just this fresh PERFECT "being" I SO HOGGED you all to myself when you were little:)
pretending you had to be fed.. then really just hiding in a corner with you.. gazing at your perfectness:)


SO the next day is fast sunday.. I am STILL a bit shocked at your willingness to be all up over the commandments...
as true be told.. I have truly fasted 3 times in my 33 years of living:) but again leading up to this day.. you asked about fasting... I tried my best to explain my short and newly born testimoney of it... however once again grandpa turner and FULLY explained it to you Thrusday night.. so even when I texted him Friday morning to be sure and run thru that with you.. his text back was..
"we had a talk about that right after family prayers" seriously JONAH the more and more I see your life unfold.. GREATNESS WILL BE EXPECTED from someone so BLESSED!!!
so Sunday.. I am all pumped to fast with you.. FULLY excited about blessings.. peace.. calm.....
so in the morning we opened with a prayer.. then a few minutes earlier you started to REALLY get SUPER nervous about the testimoney you knew the bishop would ask you to give after he introduced you to the the ward... ( THANK THE HEAVENS ABOVE FOR BISHOP!!!!! FULLY EXPLAINING that he would be asking.. such your language of wanting prepareness:)
so I had you talk to grandpa.. but that was a bit frustrating cause the phone kept hanging up... then commotion was all over.. I was trying to help but but making you feel rushed.. that you broke down..
I immediately went into the closet with you.. and said.. " okay.. let so give this fasting a test.. this holy ghost a test!!!"
then I said a prayer that you would KNOW what to say... that peace would come over you when you went up to the stand"
as you kept asking what to say.. I kept telling you say what is in your heart!!! you said you didnt know what was in your heart!!!!!!

so after this .. I simply said.. I PROMISE... once you get up there.. peace will over come you..and you WILL KNOW what to say!!!!!

jonah.. YOU WERE AMAZING!!!! you spoke so clearly and slowly!!!! you expressed gratitude for your baptism and the holy ghost..
you even said you were grateful that we are all here on this earth together!!!!!
DUDE I am so GLAD I AM ON THIS EARTH WITH YOU IN MY HOME!!!!!!!!!!!

what an experience!!!! I will so be holding on to your light!!!
I just LOVE you so much!!!!