appreciation both ways

there was this store I was dying to go to.. SOOO spencer and I decided to try it on our own with truly and ozzy in tow..
it was hard to get to.. my expectation are ridiculously HIGH!!!!! (note to self) I was getting quite short with spence.. started to even use some choice words!!!
he calmly asked me not to use those words.. I was SOOOOOOO missing my PERFECT guide AT.. we got there at stores I was wanting to hit didn't even open till 11( not understanding why the heck stores to NOT open earlier.. even the supermarket doesn't open till 10) I am really I NEED to drop off boys then go to the supermarket.. not walk all the way back home THEN dress ozzy and trues up to head back out!!
ANYWAYS.. gave spencer and I plenty of time to head back home.. ITS was hard and confusing!!! even when we were cutting it close we made another mistake and spencer quietly said you are NOT going to like what I am going to say.. SPENCER just spit it out!!!!!!
we are going the wrong way... NOW please understand mom.. I have tried this WHOLE time in Japan to do and be as they do.. its a respect thing I so want to embrace.. HOWEVER.. today I LOST MY EVER LOVING MIND... completely.. that i was going around cussing a storm and pounding my head making a fool of myself.. something you just do not see or do here.. it wont change the out come rather just look like an idiot).. you see it was my first day to pick up the boys.. how ultimately disrespectful to be LATE.
got off my train stop at 1128 and RAN the whole way...
I felt horrible later that night and told spencer how sorry I was.. being the calm boy he is, he simply said dont worry about it..
allen came home from korea the next day and had a town that a friend said we needed to check out.. allen told spencer and I the city.. we BOTH looked at each other and said YES we know the city.. we all did it together.. even though spencer and I had done it.. we didn't remember how to get there one and TWO it really took AT some serious concentrating to get us there( so much that a lady even came up to us and asked if we needed help which has never happened thus far.. but I guess we looked like a scene just ALL standing there looking at the lines)..made me realize it was amazing spencer had even gotten us there..
BOTTOM line.. jaime needs to ask her heavenly father for more understanding and calmness....