we had a friend come over that you (tad) had chosen.. asusa (mom) ichiro (friend) and 2 year old brother walked home with us to our apt..
You kept wanting to give me something back at school.. but I told you to KEEP it in your bag till we got home as
1. it was raining ALWAYS makes pick up that much more intense.. as small area to begin with.. add umbrellas being knocked around.. other moms with strollers.. MUD.. etc.. etc.. ALL the while NOT being pushy and USING your best POLITE manners.. of excuse me excuse me.. GET OUT OF THE WAY.. stop chatting FOCUS... I am so american.. BUT totally do TRY to keep calm.. EVEN if ozzy is starting to ask "please take me home" I STILL wait my turn.. ANYWAYS
2. friend and mom are waiting, she only has one child, one line to wait in.. SO I am nervous about making her wait:)
3. had gift for chiharu that has TRANSLATED so much for me.. AT had picked out what would be consider polite:)
so we finally get you in the green stroller with rain cover which I thought since it was raining would be a good idea..as AT was home working.. trues and ozzy napping ( so you both could hop in).. what a ORDEAL.. plus I think at this age here.. its important to learn "hey your going to be walking ALOT for years to come. so lets build that core strength thats in us all:)
we ALL walk into the tiny space that we are to unload.. you are STILL just throwing your stuff on the ground which YES in America its a matter of my OCD but here you do that our guest have to TRIP over our many bags, coats, umbrellas.. the list goes on..
so finally you give me these two pieces of paper..
"mom I made these for you, do you love them?? yes tad I do.. " so you wont throw them away or rip them up"
OH MY word.. I didnt know at this age you really noticed or cared.. as more and more you are becoming the trash parole of what mom throws away..
oh my sweet boy these are hung and will be with me till I DIE!!!! as a turning point for mom.. to be more attentive and aware of what matters.. to really try and put my " love to throw things away on the back burner"
when I go on.. I hope this is a record of HOW MUCH I love, adore, would DIE for you.. that in the end you just KNOW this without any hesitation.. all the other mistakes will be over looked because you KNEW, FELT on a daily bases.. how much your mom loved you and would go to the end of the earth just for YOU!!!
I just love you, Jaime.
ReplyDeleteMade me cry....you are THE BEST MOM. Thanks for being such a great example to me always.
ReplyDeleteYou made me cry.....more......I love you so much. I love how you wrote that! I have a HUGE snowflake hanging from the fireplace in my bedroom right now, and another one on my headboard (of couse, both hung by my Jord). I was just thinking of HOW ON EARTH I WILL EVER take them down. Any now, after reading that, not sure if I will ever. Again....just love you!!!
ReplyDeleteOk, I should be better at that. I throw away almost EVERYTHING Scott brings home from school. When the other kids were little, I kept everything and ended up with boxes and boxes of STUFF that I never looked at again. As I try to not do that again, maybe he is seeing me and wishing I wouldn't get rid of it all...although he has never said anything.
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