I have not so much enjoyed the being on someone else clock.. while doing togetherness with chiharu.. I feel as if I ALWAYS have to be at their mercy.. I never quite feel comfortable doing what I would do if she was not in the picture.. is this my need to be independent.. or HER culture japanese way.. of "let do it together.. WHY, WHY AND OH YES WHY do anything alone, if you can do it together??"
but I feel like "I am stuck.. if my kids are done.. I have to politely wait till they are done.. never really knowing DUDE whats your time frame?? how long or short are you wanting to do such and such event.???
dumb nothingness.. it has FORCED me to try and dig deep.. RELAX.. YES I just typed that word..
SO I have turned to my humor.. to hide.. my own frustration, annoyance..
as you wanted to go to the HUGE water spot.. leaning WAY over.. as if YOU wanted to take a bath.. or go swimming in your clothes??
can I run after you?? not so much.. fussing with an ozzy for a second.. while keeping the momentum going with the others. got to keep my tabs on truly.. she is trying to hit the NEW playground she just found. WHICH I would have stopped and LET you do... if I WAS ALONE.. and didn't have a chiharu wanting to WALK the park.. explore... which yes FUN.. I want to do actually but then FEEL like I have to keep my kids on track with what your family wants.....
can I yell TAD come here.. NO would be rude.. I would get looks of "THERE IS NO YELLING IN JAPAN, DIDNT you get that memo??"
so I just turn and say.. should we take a bet if my tad is going to go swimming today?????
right then you come running.. thanks TAD!!!