azusa.. today jonah graduated kindergarden.. which was SUCH A BIG FREAKIN ORDEAL here.. ... I mean REALLY.. towards the end..AT was singing.. its JUST KINDERGARDEN.. in a low funny tone.. to throw off any listener that MIGHT be able to catch what he was saying.. I punched him.. as dude I will be so embarrassed if anyone hears you.. then it got better.. the younger class was told to come to the school for only 30 minutes today.. to tell the older classes good job.. and good bye.. AT again.. started up.. with THEY ARE NOT going off to war.. gggghhhhhheeeeezzzzzzz kills me when he mocks the culture ways.. HE BROUGHT us here..
but I started to CRY..not cause of this big step but because of azusa.. ASUZA.. will I ever really get to see her again???? she is so special.. very kind.. you just feel it off of her.. I know with out even having to understand her words.. that she would never speak ill of anyone.. her heart.. HER HEART she is so tender.. as I walked away... with jonah and AT ( as her son is in the younger class with tad, that said good bye to jonah in the older class) I turned back again to wave goodbye.. I HONESTLY get all teary eyed again thinking about her..
then while at home with the kids during a bit of down time.. (AT and the boys ran in get their JR passes as we are going to hit kyoto a day before AT has to head to osaka)
I hear the buzz.. its azusa.. I say come in.. she slowly and clearly says.. I cant come up.. please come down.. I come down and she has three little bags.. saying each one is for my kids.. I start to cry all over again.. begging her to PLEASE.. PLEASE come see me in the US.. she says okay.. I tried to tell her in the WORST japanese ever.. that I cried today because of her.. not because of jonahs. school.. I will still get to see those teachers that I love cause tad will be there still..
I KNOW she understands me.. she is just so special.. I know this is SO far fetched.. but my heart can be okay..
1. never really getting to really have a heart to heart..
2. eternity.. oh SHE will SOOOOOOO be there.. just hope I will get to be next to her.. or I can request her to visit in the other kingdom?? we shall see..