exhausted from being different.. tired of being different..
I have ALWAYS had this inner need to be different separated.. special.. noticed I suppose.. to come to this point of AAAAAHHHHHHHH its old.. its exhausting..
I have never tried to find originality at the gap.. I have STRIVED to be different thru fashion.. then to laugh a bit inside.. when moms would say.. HEY I had that blouse first.. then SHE thought it was cute.. and I see it on her the following sunday..
when in essence that IS THE BIGGEST form of flattery.. but why do we not like it.. cause we want to be special original.. know we matter.. we bring something different to the table..
WELL being here.. we bring ALL sorts of different..
as I check tad into school.. i have a HAPPY INDEPENDENT truly with her purse in tow.. so BIG.. so happy.. to turn my back to hop on our bike.. to HAVE TRULY pinched on the arm by SOME child.. so i scoop you up.. tears.. I take you back over to the area of KIDS.. I say show me who.. to you THEY ALL LOOK THE SAME.. you cant identify who it was as you search ( was I going to do something.. say ANYthing.. NO.. but I wanted you to know.. I CARED) .. so you just shrug your shoulders.. . I AM sure.. normal two year old.. or toddler exploring this DIFFERENT looking thing.. this CUTE.. independent. american, ora, FREE. big thinking child.. am I reading too much into.. SURE.. but would this happen in america?? YOU BET.. but I cant help but be exhausted by all of it.. coming to a head.. as DUDE its SO AWESOME to be different lets figure out what we bring.. what we can give.. what WE SHOULD be giving to a world a universe that GIVES so much.. more so to a god that has given it all..
JUST dude.. mr/mrs japan.. we UNDERSTAND the nail that sticks out gets slammed back down.. just can we cut down on the slamming??? we just have a bit of time left.. and I would LOVE to just focus on all you have given.. give me a moment to feel and see what we may in turn give back.. leave behind.. to show our gratefulness.. let me rest......