whoa to the WHOA to the wee whoa whoa whoa......... jonah/tad/truly/ozzy.. this whole time.. while seriously journaling documenting anything everything.. then to come to sit here.. load up the pictures.. think "why i took this shoot or what i was THINKG in this moment I decided that it was worth me digging out my camera.. "
all this time.. I HONESTLY thought.. dude. YOU KNOW.. YOU KNOW i love you.. aaaahhhhhh squeeze love adore want to just kiss/hug on you..
with recent events... jonah you being MORE clear in your thoughts.. feelings.. I have COME to realize.. that i need to make a HUGE correction..
I SO HOPE YOU ARE GETTING how much I love you.. I might have just missed the mark.. I might have failed.. I MIGHT have THOUGHT I was speaking your love language to in turn have missed it COMPLETELY.. yes I will get e for effort.. but sometimes.. that is JUST NOT EVEN CLOSE TO ENOUGH.. I honestly IGNORANTLY.. thought I could do better.. be it ALL.. to humbling have you say things.. that let me KNOW... whoa this is deep....
quite honestly this little moment I am in.. realizing...... this SUCKS..... really painful and simply SUCKS..
SON OF A BITCHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH son of a FETCHING BITCHHHHHHHHHH
dude the blessing you are holy s to the hit..... this RINGS SO TRUE ITS SICK..
aaaahhhhh

I honestly IGNORANTLY thought.. DUDE.. my kids KNOW..oh they know.. as we were.. as a little family.. were sitting in this tiny.. TINY.. LITTLE moment.. arms WRAPPED around each other.. holding on to WHAT WE knew.. what was COMFY.. as fish out of water.. but with POSITIVE.. and hopes dreams.. of WHAT THIS COULD hold..
to as of lately.. a big pile of HORSE DUNG has been placed right on me.. just shows. it feels like the sky is the limit.. all things are in place.. I should and WILL sit in it.. thinking and feeling that MOMENT.. FEELING it deeper.. cause SOME learning is RIGHT AROUND THE CORNER!! which it SO should be!! I will learn.. I will strap on my boots. ( golden goose to be exact:) and TRY ever SO hard.. not just for you.. but for me!!!!