just seeing her FACE.. she is so nice.. just really kind.. as tad sometimes you can all the sudden go off about something that made you mad.. as you start to all the sudden get on me.. for taking a photo of you with trulys wings on.. MOM WHY DID YOU DO THAT.. I am trying shhhhh you like.. tad calm down.. just play with shoo he.. cheryl listens to you.. takes you in her arms.. pulls out her phone to say.. look at the funny photos we took with shoo he in a wig.. its just him being silly.. even right now retelling this makes me get emotional.. as HOW tender is she.. its as if she brings the like of christ into my home..... she has really been this angel.... I have had many school friends come over.. which ALWAYS equals the moms coming.. I dread it a bit.. as its truly is hard to be in a small space.. while attending to my children.. not being rude to the mom.. trying to engage.. ALSO not being a calm person myself.. trying to really check in.. not feeling bad for one second cutting off a child trying to interrupt.. as I SERVE.. i hop skip and jump for you ALL.. everyday ALL day.. I have felt in the long run. this life would NOT be the best for you all.. as you NEED to see your mom doing for others much more than you have in the last few months.. even though this a been a tender SWEET time..
but also jonah you came home is a sour mood.. telling me.. I don't want to just stay inside.. i mean you really come home all demanding and such.. I had to send you to your room....many times.. then tried to focus.. it was so unpleasant for me.. as I kept getting side tracked by just the demands of being a LUCKY mom of four!!! i need to remember your age.. as IT KILLS me when I get such a strong message of ungratefulness!!!!
cheryl was even.. calm.. she even clued into you when she was leaving.. saying jonah you want me to walk you to the park?? so tender so KIND!!!! she reminded me when she left.. hey that park that has the inside area doesn't close till 6.. well you can guess where we went:)
even though I should have maybe stayed home and focused on addressing your attitude!!