last thrusday was the straw the broke the camels back.. jonah came home.. I could tell it was a bit rough.. as you didn't want to go to school the last two days.. but with moms mind focused more on we DONT quit.. this is life!!!! you need to figure out YOUR part in hard situations!!!!!
well i always let us do some down time of no thinking... i NEED it..
so truly wakes up.. we go to the park... AT meets us their.. we are just loosing it.. breaking down.. get overly frustrated.. crying!!!!!
dude.. over and over again.. i am sending you to a place to calm down. take deep breaths.. I talk to dad as we are walking home.. telling him it was another HARD day at school.. when its bad like this.. he comes home and takes it out on us.. tad!!!
as you were as I was trying not to take all you were saying personal.. as we go to 7-11 for you to ask for a toy.. i am like ARE YOU crazy.. on what planet have you earned that??? plus ALL I have done the last few days.. letting you have your scooter earlier..
the list could go on and on .. but...... no the point..
I have a little tender jonah.. who is being pushed TOO far.. its just TOO much..
ATand I decide the next morning.. ENOUGH.. the school is breaking you.. your spirit.. time to keep you home and work inside!!!!
as the day progresses on ... my fears of you being bored...or all the worries of the message it will send to you.. of time to tap out..
they fade as an AT makes up school work for you.. its as if before my very eyes.. I SEE the burden lifted off your shoulders...
you little noggin doesnt have to STRESS.. GEAR UP.. day to day.. of how you are going to adapt in the school.. how you will cope..
as back to the park..
you were crying saying you asked people to play with you.. NO ONE would play with you.. the bald kid was still pushing you. especially on rainy days.. as HE is allowed to go anywhere he wants cause he is older.. that you were just standing there... he punched you in the stomach.. then the chest.. that you tired to stay away from him.. but you didn't know he was standing in front of you....
now I will never know the whole story.. as I am sure he didn't just punch you out of no where... or did he?? we will never know.. as too many children in one class..no way for the best teacher to even keep track of all the needs.. but my feeling is this is a culture thing..
at a very young age.. kids are taught.. THIS WILL BE YOUR LIFE.. you MUST learn to function with SO many others in a very small space.. SHARE..
also as I start to think..I think to when AT was in 5th grade he was bused to a different school along with the hispanics to learn english ESL...
when shogo and reina were in seattle they had a special class time that the school provided for them to learn english...
WHERE IN THE HELL!!!!!!!!!!!!!! was the time EVER set aside of the SCHOOL to provide extra learning for you!!!!!
did we expect to much????? I feel so...... as even TJ's school provided it for the foreigners..
in this respect.. this school let us down..
my goal is HAPPINESS.. i do NOT want this to be the taste left in our mouth.. i do NOT want you to judge japan.. its culture on this experience..
which as it turns out is a blessing!!!! AT and I are fully aware of your needs.. we will kill ourselves trying to meet them..
your father!!!! he loves you.. we have a plan of action!!!!!