you do NOT mess with blessings!!!! REPEAT DO NOT!!!!!!
now.. I went to church yesterday simply because I wanted to hand in fast offerings and tithing.. I LOVE the blessing we all feel from that...
I suppose I should not be shocked that only HOURS later the blessings came..
ozzy you were crawling around playing in the boys socks.. tad and jonah loving on you.. when you went to pull yourself up.. you fell back down.. the NOISE I heard a loud thud.. i was SO nervous to pull you up to see the damage.. I still remember that moment.. as it was in slow motion.. as the PIECE of CRAP IKEA LIKE bed we have.. the edges might as well be knifes!!!
but to my PURE joy.. NOTHING.. just a little red mark.....
so the following afternoon.. while putting.. truly down for a MUCH NEEDED nap!!!.. we do it together to let her know.. we will have fun again when you awake!!! her closet door is open you crawl towards it.. looked harmless.. as I pull her up to wish us all a great day.. you start to half cry.. the cry of this IS SO BAD.. I can hardly catch my breath!!!!!!!
I go over to again.. think SLOW.. as your little perfect finger is in these hinges.. not just any hinge but DUDE a hinge that could really just slice your finger clean off.. the way it was in there.. makes me SICK to my stomach right now.. even though I know the out come!!!!
but I stop to look to be careful.. as if I would have pushed it one way.. it would have just made it tighter..
but as I slowly remove you from being stuck.. I pick you up.. softly comforting you.. you seriously just burry your sweet cuddly face in my neck.. as the pain is SO intense.. you can hardly stand it.. your cry to SO tender.. so soft.. its as if you are saying.. mom.. holy mom.. this is just a bit too much to take.. I look at your finger.. i am so torn..... i am walking in a soft small circle with you.. just starting to have tears myself.. you cute little bundle.. this sucks.. do I hurry over to the hospital?? as no blood.. but it literally looks MASHED!!! I first think.. is it going to start turning purple and fall off!!!!! my brain is trying to catch up.. as I can NOT believe it.. I am trying to think fingers?? can they break?? can in be worse inside???
but as I walk out the of room and continue to comfort you.. I keep trying to asset your finger.. as your finger starts to plump up.. i see that it will be okay..
MY THOUGHTS BOTH TIMES!!! turned towards tithing and fast offerings!!!!!! I felt both were direct blessings!!!!!!!!!
god is so good.. he is so tender.. very AWARE of us!!!!!! let us NEVER forget this.. we should expect the trials.. the hardships.. but lets ME always remember.. he is there!!!!!