Saturday, February 13, 2010







so nice chiharu.. WHO I am going to owe big time!!! I am SURE a stay in utah with us is in the future!!!
but she is going out to a mall I have never been too and ask if I would like to tag along!! does she even need to ask???
I still think WOW how kind of her, as in the states I WOULD NEVER ask a foreigner with double the kids to tag along with me on an errand!! NO WAY.. I have a mission i don't need someone holding me back!!!
but it was so nice to drive in a car.. THEN to see a mall that i am TOTALLY missing out on!!
an awesome gym that you kids just LOVED!! a lot of cute kids stores..
I do have to be honest.. I HATE being at the mercy of some one else!!! HATE IT.. as I love to do what I want and sometimes its hard to feel out what she wants to do?? does she want to stay together?? divide and meet up??
I think I figured out thru emails.. she enjoys doing things together..pointing out cute things to one another, chatting walking around enjoying things...... WHAT?????? I have four kids.. although we got some chatting in.. how much of it got interrupted with rein a kid in..... its SO hard for my brain to do both at the same time.. and I cant help but just be how I am as a mom?? although she would NEVER tell the truth.. I see how she does not rush her kids!! she will wait till the cows come home for her 2 year old to put on her own shoes.. she plays with her kids in the ball house.. DUDE this is my break:) they are lucky I brought them..
I guess what i am trying to say.. is a lot of the details get go out the window the more kids you have.. I remember being a mother of two and being able to be SO much more attentive.. where now they ALL have to divide and think of one another EVEN my little ozzy ( NOT GETTING TO sleep in a bed!!!) truly crying cause she HAS to sit in the stroller.. I cant hold her on my hip talk to her about "hey i know you want to get down and run to the stores but I simply have to have you in here"
its like wine loud but I already have a monkey on me!!
things just are not always neat and tidy like I would like.. and if I was on my own.. which is MOST comfy for me.. I would stop when I want to stop.. look at what I want to look at.. but I cant do that as I don't know what she wants.. plus the time I did.. she offers to watch the kids out side so they are PUT on her.. which I DO FOR the kids ALL day.. its GOOD for them to suck it up learn to give mom a min.. as I NEVER ask my kids for more that 30 minutes at any store.. I KNOW all of our limits..

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