grateful.. i am FEELING it.. day to day.. hour by hour.. I am getting the feelings back I CAME here with.. just in the NICK of time.... i feared I would leave with a bit of a chip on my shoulder.. I didn't want it..
AFTER talking to my mother of japan in law.. that has tried to pound the japan into me.. since an early age of 15...
she wisely telling me.. " there will be things you miss about japan"
I found it today.. I was buzzing around.. on my bike of course.. being able to hit store after store of errands.. with a quick pull up.... park the bike and walk two steps inside the store...
I am STILL forever looking for a kimono to hang on my wall WHICH I am HAVING TO DO ALL ON MY OWN.. as AT thinks its dumb..
ANYWAYS makes the process that much MORE difficult explaining to these shops!!!!
but I run to get downy.. tide.. turn in AT's dry cleaning for the last time.. I am finding.. a lot of things.. that I think..this will be my last time of this or that:)........... to then have to stop for a few groceries.. I step in to see.. the MOM of the three boys that I would DIE if truly would marry one of them.. ( really maybe not, TOO far.. but this is how adorable I think they are)
but I immediately give her my FRIEND hello.. that is LOUD, warm and just OH MY GOSH.. I love running into you.. ..
then I pull her into me to ask her.. ok show me you number one mushrooms you like..
which really the words I know..
mushrooms.
like
number one..
but she gets it.. shows.. me.. then I grab another product.. to ask her if she knows if this is tofu milk.. she studies it and I see her looking for a clerk.. NO.. too much trouble.. its okay..its okay.. then just grab it.. knowing when I taste it at home. I will know:)
so I finish up.. while letting trues pick out a treat.. she comes grabs the milk from me.. to run and ask the sales clerk.. by this time.. I am done and in line right behind.. her.. SO nice.. SO MY FRIEND.. in a NON VERBLE communicating way...
so even after she is done.. bagging her food.. she right there behind me to put my basket away..
again.. my loud..
thanks
friend.. ( only words I know.. and I DO NOT care at this point.. if I sound like an idiot.. she must and SO much the rest of the country know. that I heart her.. that I feel her.. that I have appreciated.. all she has shared and done for our little family..)
I will miss these people.. there silent but tender ways.!!!!!
but I KNOW I will see them again.. wont even have to wait very long.... as most of them will be up there!!!! hopefully I am up there and they don't have to come down to visit me.. how embarrassing.. but at that point I wont care about being embarrassed.. i will just be bummed I am not closer:) I WILL TRY my JAPAN.. till I DIE!!!!! TRY!!!!!! just like IONE.. taking general conference notes.. months before she passed thru the vail!!!!!!!